VALENTINES DAY.....

Well, first of all, I will say to each and everyone. Happy Valentines Day. Yep, today is Feb.14,2006. And for the first time in my life, I have been able to somewhat enjoy this day of love as they say.
I have met a man, a wonderful and caring man, who has shown be how to love like no other. And has made me realize that there is such a thing as love as first sight, or my case, love at first chat..lol. Now I am serious, I have not yet actually met this man. We met on an online date site, and after acouple months of chatting off and on, and will say once thought found someone, but turned out that he was not ready for the kind of relationship I was looking for.
I was looking for a man who could make my heart pitter patter at the very thought of being in love, and as this would be my first and hopefully last love of a lifetime, wanted it to be one felt would last forever, through anything. So, yes I joined a date site, was not sure about it at first, but then come to realize was not that bad. Almost quit acouple of times, as I found that there were more guys who where just there to chat and try and have some fun then to actually build a true relationship with someone and fall in love and marry.
I did make some friends, dont get me wrong, and a good friend helped me to understand that I am able to open myself up, and take a chance on love, for you see, even though had been married for ten years, never was actually in love. And so I think this situation, caused me to be afraid to open myself love to find love, let alone to be loved.
So with this in mind, and lots of guys just wanting to chat, with no true interest in building a long lasting relationship, I almost signed off and gave up, but something told me to continue, and so got a flirt from someone new, was not too sure about it.. thought about quiting site again, but something, something told me to answer this flirt and dont give up just yet..
Oh My God, much to my surprise, he responded quickly to me again when I answered his flirt message. And we began to try and connect which was hard as he was in UK, and me in USA. So finally one day, he hopped on, and we chatted for acouple minutes, and we had decided to switch over to my Messanger and chat there. We chatted for about 2 hours the first time I believe. And to be quite honest, he gave me such a good feeling chatting with him. He was also wanting to find someone interested in a true long lasting relationship, and possible future together, and him also was tired of chatting with women who only wanted to have some fun online, and not serious.
We set up a second chat for the next evening, and I have to tell you girls something, he shivered my timbers...lol I mean I felt as if I have know the guy for many years, and had grown to care for him lots. It was such a stange feeling that came over me. And to be honest after chatting for long time again, I did not want to stop, we both kept saying bye, but then would chat alittle more, and tell each other that we did not want to stop. I have never in my lifetime had such a feeling while chatting with a man I never met. It was great.
We continued chatting and getting to know each other, and much to my surprise, I fell in Love with him...Yep.. Fell in Love. Wow what a wonderful and strange feeling at the same time. I mean I have heard of Love at first sight. But we never met.. And I felt such excitement when I heard his voice when he called to tell me he loved me also. And before knew it, he was purposing online.. and I accepted... Wow...
I have no issues about loving this man, and wanting to spend the rest of my life with him. I know we both love each other, and want to be together, and will continue to do so until our dying days.. In fact, we are planning to marry this summer... How fantastic is that.
My one slight regret, is that today... Valentines Day, he is out of state and taking care of family business. And gosh, I so wish he was here with me, for you see, I have never ever really had any reason to celebrate and enjoy Valentines Day, until now.. But I know we both were thinking of each other today, and how much we love each other, and we did get to chat on phone, thats the next best thing, right. And it just gives me more to look forward to in the future years of my life with him..
So really today was a great day for me, always is after I chat with him.. hell, it even makes me smile to even think of him....thats True Love. And I know I will have many, many more Valentines Days to celebrate with.... My True Valentine...

Happy Valentines Day Everyone.....wish you all the best, and enjoy your true love.. I am..